Matt & Ian are here!!

I am SO happy because Matt and Ian arrived just this afternoon! Ian has gotten so tall and so grown-up, but as I told Tim, he'll always be my baby :)! I'm not sure what all we are going to do this weekend, but I'm thrilled that Tim and I are able to be off for 5 days so we can spend time with them. Tomorrow we are taking Ian to a birthday party of one of the kids from my kindergarten class. It is at a place where kids can jump on all kinds of bouncy blow-up stuff, so I know he'll have fun.

They couldn't have come at a better time. The past two weeks have been pretty rough on me. I really do not like being out of the general education classroom! The first few days back I had to fight back the tears when I would see my kindergarteners go to class with another teacher. I had no idea how attached I was and how much they influenced me! It has been great seeing them almost everyday, though. They all rush up to me whenever they see me at school and several of them have made me pictures and cards that they have brought to me. Isn't it funny how something so small can make you feel so good?

I am really trying to keep a positive attitude about my new position, but the environment is very depressing. One of the kids who is in the class nearly all of the time is bipolar and can freak out at any moment. Most of the time he is really good and sweet, but when he gets mad, watch out! Two teachers had to hold him in a restraint for about 20 minutes the other day while he screamed and tried to kick them. A lot of it is out of his control, but it is still hard to listen to him scream like that.

I plan to meet with my principal soon because I'm afraid that I'm putting all of my eggs in one basket. The school that I'm at is going to be downsizing next year because a new school is opening. I will have spent my entire year at this one school and I'm a bit worried that I'm not getting the exposure that I need in order to get a job offer. Hopefully, I will get hired where I work now, but it's a gamble. Anyway, I know she cannot promise me a job, but I do plan to ask her what my chances are and how she can help me.

One other thing...I found a house for sale that I love! I have only seen it online, but Tim and I are going to get to see it this weekend. It is small, but a great starter house in a cute neighborhood and very affordable. Keep your fingers crossed for us!